1.Alive
son, she said
have i got a little story for you
what you thought was your daddy
was nothin' but a....
while you were sittin'
home alone at age thirteen
your real daddy was dyin'
sorry you didn't see him
but i'm glad we talked...
i...i...i'm still alive (3x)
oh she walks slowly
across a young man's room
she said i'm ready...for you
i can't remember anything
to this very day
'cept the look...the look...
now i can't see,...i just stare...
i...i...i'm still alive (4x)
is something wrong
she said
of course there is
you're still alive
she said
do i deserve to be
is that the question
and if so,...if so...
who answers？
who answers？
i...i...i'm still alive
i...i...i'm still alive
i...i...i'm still alive
i...i'm still alive
yeah yeah yeah yeah
2.Black
Hey...oooh...
Sheets of empty canvas
Untouched sheets of clay
Her legs spread out before me
As her body was there
All five horizons
Revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed
Has taken a turn
Ooh, and all I taught her was, everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all, that she wore
And now my bitter hands
Chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything
Oh, the pictures have
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by
Some kids at play
I can feel their laughter
So why do I sear
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin
Round my head
I'm spinning
Oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can, drop away...
And now my bitter hands
Cradle broken glass
Of what was everything
All the pictures had
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
All the love gone bad
Turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see
All that I am
All I'll be...
Yeah
Uh huh...uh huh...ooh...
I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a sun
In somebody else's sky
But why
Why
Why can't it be
Why can't it be mine
(not sure？)
mm-hmm no yeah no
mm mmmm no nonono yeah yeah
we-
we belong
we belong together
together
oooh ooh
we-
we belong
we belong together
oh yeah
3.Deep
on the edge
windowsill
ponders his maker
ponders his will
to the street below
he just ain't nothin'
but he's got a great view...
on the edge
know-nothin' town
feelin' quite superior
the aged come
to the sky above
he just ain't nothin'
but he's got a great view...
on the edge of a
christmas clean love
young virgin from heaven
visiting...
to the man above her
she just ain't nothin'...
she doesn't like the view
doesn't like the view
doesn't like the view...
but he sinks himself deep.
can't touch the bottom
in too deep
can't touch the bottom
can't touch the bottom
in too deep
can't touch the bottom
can't touch the bottom
in too deep
can't touch the bottom
can't touch the bottom
deep...
4.Even Flow
Freezin', rests his head on a pillow made of concrete, again
Oh, Feelin' maybe he'll see a little betters any days
Oh, hand out, faces that he sees come again ain't that familiar
Oh, dark grin, he can't help when he's happy he looks insane
Even flow
thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don't know
so he chases them away
someday yet he'll begin his life again
Life again
Kneelin', looking through the paper though he doesn't know to
read
Prayin', now to something that has never showed him anything
Oh, feelin', understands the weather or that winters on its way,
yeah
Oh, ceilings, few and far between all the legal halls of shame
Even flow
thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don't know
so he chases them away
someday yet he'll begin his life again
Whispering hands, carry him away
him away, him away
yeah!
woo
oh yeah yeah
5.Garden
the direction of the eye
so misleading
the defection of the soul
nausously quick
i don't question
our existence
i just question
our modern needs
i will walk...with my hands bound
i will walk...with my face blood
i will walk...with my shadow flag
into your garden
garden of stone
after all is done
we're still alone
i won't be taken
yet i'll go...
i will walk...with my hands bound
i will walk...with my face blood
i will walk...with my shadow flag
into your garden
garden of stone
i don't show...
i don't share...
i don't need
what you have to give...
6.Jeremy
at home
drawing pictures
of mountain tops
with him on top
lemon yellow sun
arms raised in a V
dead lay in pools of maroon below
daddy didn't give attention
to the fact that mommy didn't care
king jeremy the wicked
ruled his world
jeremy spoke in class today
jeremy spoke in class today
clearly i remember
pickin' on the boy
seemed a harmless little fuck
but we unleashed a lion
gnashed his teeth
and bit the recessed lady's breast
how could i forget
he hit me with a surprise left
my jaw left hurtin
dropped wide open
just like the day
like the day i heard
daddy didn't give affection
and the boy was something mommy wouldn't wear
king jeremy the wicked
ruled his world
jeremy spoke in class today
jeremy spoke in class today
try to forget this...
try to erase this...
from the blackboard.
7.Ocean
hold on to the thread
the currents will shift
guide me towards you
know something's left
and we're all allowed to dream
of the next time we touch..........
you don't have to stray
two oceans away
waves roll in my thoughts
hold tight the ring...
the sea will rise...
please stand by the shore...
i will be...
i will be...
there once more.........
8.Once
i admit it...what's to say
i'll relive it...without pain
backstreet lover on the side
of the road
i got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode
i got a .16 gauge buried
under my clothes...i play.
once upon a time i could control myself
once upon a time i could lose myself
oh try and mimic..what's insane
i am in it...where do i stand？
indian summer i hate the heat
i got a backstreet lover on the passenger seat
i got my hand in my pocket
so determined
discreet...i pray.
once upon a time i could control myself
once upon a time i could lose myself
once upon a time i could love myself
once upon a time i could love myself
once
once
once
9.Porch
what the fuck is this world running to？
you didn't leave a message
at least i could have
heard your voice one last time.
daily minefield
this could be my time
how 'bout you？
would you hit me？
would you hit me？
all the bills go by
the measley tibs are taken up
by the middle
there ain't gonna be any middle any more
and the cross i'm bearing home
ain't indicative of my place
left the porch
left the porch
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
walk beside me
i just need to say...
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
what can i take？ (？)
i just want to be
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
what can i take？ (？)
i just want to be
i know that i would not ever touch you
hold you
feel you
ever hold
never again
10.Release
i see the world
feel the truth
which way to go
windowsill
i see the words
on a rocking horse of time
i see the birds in the rain
oh dear dad
can you see me now
i am myself
like you somehow
i'll ride the wave
where it takes me
i'll hold the pain
release me
oh dear dad
can you see me now
i am myself
like you somehow
i'll wait up in the dark
for you to speak to me
i'll open up
release me
release me
release me
release me
11.Why Go
she scratches a letter
into a wall made of stone
maybe someday
another child
won't feel as alone as she does
it's been two years
and counting
since they put her in this place
she's been diagnosed
by some stupid fuck
and mommy agrees
why go home？
why go home？
why go home...
she seems to be stronger
but what they want her to be is weak
she could just pretend
she could play the game
she could be another clone
why go home？
what you taught me
don't come visit
put me here
mommy dear
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